My Backwards Walk

you seriously just post things to hurt me

Fri, 24 May 2013 16:43:00 -0400

you seriously just post things to hurt me

insert quote….and you wouldnt care

Wed, 22 May 2013 23:59:36 -0400

insert quote….and you wouldnt care

you make it look so easy

Wed, 22 May 2013 23:28:39 -0400

you make it look so easy

Everything is getting worse, harder, and just miserable. Still love you very much and I just miss...

Wed, 22 May 2013 20:21:50 -0400

Everything is getting worse, harder, and just miserable. Still love you very much and I just miss you more everyday. How am I supposed to get over you when I just miss you more everyday. I hate this. I was in love so deep that I just knew I would marry you and have a family with you. I seriously don’t know anything anymore. I can’t watch tv because all it is is people with their loved one or best friend, and not having you I have neither and it makes me so sad. And gosh darn every song is about love. I just want to understand and I want to not hurt. But I just know I messed up and lost my best friend.

How could have ever yelled at you? How could I ever stop opening your door? How could I just be mean and selfish to someone I loved so much? These questions haunt me. I just want to stop crying and be a freakin man. But all I think about is all about how I failed you and it sucks. I don’t want to hurt anymore. I pray so hard everyday and I have faith. But I just don’t understand why the hurt won’t go away and just gets worse.

I took you for granted and I’m so so so sorry

i had way too many dreams last night. and about you know who. the dreams seemed so real. i was so...

Wed, 22 May 2013 11:02:00 -0400

i had way too many dreams last night. and about you know who. the dreams seemed so real. i was so sad and upset to wake up.

I want you back, back, back

Mon, 20 May 2013 17:54:41 -0400

i never know what music to listen to anymore. it sucks. i just need to quit listening and try again in a month or something. i just want to get in my car and play some music ya know. its summer. but i just cant. the only radio station will ever listen to is 101.1 the Beat, which dont get me wrong is borderline perfect. but i wish i could go back to the old station at times.

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Mon, 20 May 2013 01:30:02 -0400

it least im starting to understand

Sat, 18 May 2013 16:27:43 -0400

all of the laughter and smiles and adventures we had together have been what has made this so hard. i thought there was potential still for us to be happy. cause it had been so good to me.

but now. i see you thought a lot differently about me then what showed in our relationship. and i get why you think i cant be in your life. you have made it clear that i wasnt good. me getting a chance to work on the many many things you thought was wrong with me, is now irrelevant because i see through how you talk to me you just simply dont want Spencer.

~~but i know there is still hope in us~~

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Sat, 11 May 2013 16:46:00 -0400